april

Sometimes people tell me I’m smart, even people who aren’t my parents, but I've never gotten a single job I've applied for. I don't think I’ve ever even gotten a response. Lots of friends ask me for favors or my opinion, and I'm happy to provide, because I like to be busy and I like my friends and I can do most things of a certain sort pretty well, and a few things very well. 

I would have made a good nun, I think. I love to pray and sew and devote and help. Also I wear very baggy clothes. That's a bad habit.

My office is a thousand degrees, I should go to the gym and swim after work but im fucking exhausted for no reason and feel weird cat guilt. I keep imagining her being as hot and bored and lonely as I am. How come sleep is never fun? You can be so sleepy all day and be really looking forward to sleeping from 3pm onward, and even feel great the next day because you slept so well, but it's never fun, sleep is always disappointing somehow. I used to wake up in the middle of the night from being so bored.  I wish sleep felt like being high, I guess being high feels like what sleep would feel like if it was in heaven but also not very good for you. I bet cat sleep feels great.